God answered my mam's prayer

I just graduated some weeks ago as a bachelor of English literature in State Islamic University in Surabaya. I did my research from March until July. It was not an easy thing that I passed. It was not because the difficult material of my research, but the hard thing is from my heart. I didn't confident enough doing the project.

My thesis adviser sometimes made me falling down but my spirit was more bigger than my fear. I chosen to always continue doing my thesis. She has been giving her whole time generously to guide me step by step from beginning to the process of writing until finishing my thesis. Her words always inspired me and brought me to higher level of thinking with critical questions and constructive to better work. What I learned from her was not only how to wrote a thesis or to met the graduation requirement, but also how to viewed this words from a new perspective. Without her kindness and patience instruction, it was possible for me to finish this thesis.

That's just a little flashback about my last project while I still a undergraduate student. Several weeks before I graduated, I was looking for a job. Actually, I have been teaching as an English teacher for primary students in one of the Islamic school in Sidoarjo. I often want to resign because I though that I'm just an ordinary person and I never won anything during my collage. Not only that, I also felt that I was a fool one. I don't know why the time runs too fast. A mount later I still arbitrarily to me, myself.

Now, I'm teaching in Senior High School and Vocational High School. For about two weeks I adaptation with my class, I teach six classes for SHS, five classes for vocational high school students and one class for primary students. I also teach at course for the preparation for national examination 2016. At the first time, teaching is not an easy thing, moreover I was not a student majoring in education. Because of that, I always learned how to make the students understand the material. One month I through, I can't believe that my students like the way I teach. I try little by little. I proud for my past that ever had no confident to me, myself, I often given up and of course I ever worked hard to fought my enemy too.

To be a teacher might be one of my mam's prayer. Long time ago she wanted me to be a teacher. Yes, it's the answer, Allah proves it.

-The one who wanna be a professional ESL teacher.-

My first day I teach him

This is the continuance of my story before. I’ve told that this day is my first day I teach him and I met him on afternoon. Seperti yang sudah aku bayangkan dan menimbang-nimbang soal yang akan diujikan karena aku sudah melihat contohnya untuk tahun 2014 ini. Hanya beberapa teks yang amat sangat panjang untuk membuat si peserta ujian itu pusing, berkeringat bahkan demam jika mereka tidak tahu arti perword. Sepuluh dua puluh menit berlalu. Aku begitu menikmati soal-soal itu, entah bagaimana perasaan Rama setelah sekian menit berlalu. Keringatnya melebur begitu saja padahal bau wangi sabunnya masih melekat di badannya, masih segar tentunya.

          Suasana sore sangat mengasyikkan, satu dua soal perkisi-kisi terjawab sudah. Karena hari pertama aku hanya mengintrogasi dia dengan beberapa pertanyaan seputar materi yang akan kita bahas dan juga beberapa buku yang akan kita gunakan sebagai kitab. Masih dengan pertanyaan yang sama ‘Apa yang masih susah?’, jawabnya sama ‘Artinya’. Next, I will make him know how to answer the best choices. Sebernarnya ada beberapa steps yang pernah diberikan oleh guruku semasa praUNAS di bangku kelas IX dan XII tapi aku lupa.

          Ternyata mengajar itu sama saja seperti sebelum-sebelumnya. Aku sangat ingin mencoba mengajar yang sekelas terdiri dari beberapa. Mumpung masih kuliah, belajar menghadapi anak sekelas. Tapi sampai saat ini juga aku tidak pernah melamar lagi sebagai tutor, selama ini aku hanya mengiyakan tawaran-tawaran dari seniorku.

My first day before teach him

Hari ini pertama kali aku mengajar Rama yang akan menghadapi UN 2014. Tentu saja aku hanya mengajar mata ujian Bahasa Inggris. Entah mengapa hingga saat ini aku masih saja merasa kurang dalam skill ‘Mengajar’. Aku masih merasa tidak bisa menguasai materi-materi itu, masih merasa belum membuat anak berhasil dan paham dalam proses belajarnya. Yang menjadi tanyaku hingga saat ini ‘Apakah ini salah satu proses? Atau memang aku tidak punyai skill untuk mengajar?’ berapa waktu yang lalu aku mengajar bella, dia murid les teman kelasku, Vina. Karena suatu hal Vina ingin aku sebagai penggantinya. Aku mengajar bella sejak Mei 2011 hingga pertengahan tahun 2013 ketika bella kelas VII. Entah, saat itu juga bella tidak menghubungiku dan akupun tidak berusaha menghubungi bella. Batinku bertanya, karena terkadang teman-temanku sepertinya begitu dekat dengan muridnya. Mengapa aku tidak bisa seperti mereka? Apa aku ini bodoh atau bagaimana.

          Awal semester VI salah satu senior jurusan dikampus memintaku untuk menggantikannya untuk murid lesnya kelas IV. Akupun mengiyakan padahal sebelumnya aku memutuskan untuk tidak mempunyai sampingan. Tapi, setelah beberapa jeda untuk berfikir akupun memutuskan untuk menerima tawaran itu atas dasar mengamalkan apa yang sudah aku dapat selama belajar di sekolah tinggi sekaligus praktek bagaimana cara menyampaikan dan membuat anak benar-benar paham mata pelajaran yang  telah diajarkan.Beberapa hari ini aku sudah belajar memahami dan bagaimana menyampaikan kisi-kisi soal UN 2014 dari file yang sudah aku unduh di internet. Semoga sore ini aku bisa belajar dari Rama dengan baik.

Jikalah setelah lulus aku memang bukan ditakdirkan menjadi tenaga pendidik atau mungkin tetap pada kemauanku hanya menjadi staff kantor/perusahaan. DAN Pagi ini aku baru saja menerima pesan dari rekan senior jurusanku yang memintaku untuk mengajar. Dia memintaku untuk menggantikan seniorku sebagai tutor yang sedang menjalani KKN selama satu bulan. Ah. Semoga aku ikhlas dengan jalanku nantinya. Entah kelak aku menjadi tenaga pengajar ataukah sebagai staff kantor/perusahaan. Otakku masih mengiblatkan ‘guru’ sebagai masa depan yang baik untukku. Man Jadda Wa Jadda ☺

to be continue...

Guests Native came for Students of ELDAF

At last Monday, Students of English Literature Department wait native speakers. On arrival two Guests native, their names are Nina and Ellen. They spoke about American. Nina and Ellen asked all of the students where they from are and many of the students guess that Nina is Indian and Ellen is African. However, students answer are wrong, they are 100% American.

Nina said that she has Indian face. Actually, her mother is native Indian. Her mother moved to America after she had got married. Nina is 100% American. Her religion is Hindu like the one of majority people in India is Hinduism. Then, Ellen is African American. She said that her hairstyle is dreadlocks like Bob Marley and her skin is black like mostly American. Many people judge that she is African. However, she is not African but 100% American. Ellen is Christian. Ellen and Nina are from United States.

Nina and Ellen said that many people in American or in all people in the world judge someone who has a black skin is a lower. Just because people who have a white skin assume that, they are smart, and more. Many people ridicule on Ellen that she is Bob Marley because her hairstyle like Bob Marley. However, right now Barrack Obama can proof that people who have a black skin is not lower than the others, he can became a President of the United States. He is first African American to hold the office.

Nina said, “if you in United States do not laugh when you see people like Ellen, better if you ask why she like her hairstyle like that. I think, she will answer happily. Like the mostly Muslim wearing veil or hijab”. So, do not judge people from their visual. No one knows that people has over plus. Do not judge people from their religion also. Every people have self-ability.